I'm not happy with that and am determined to do something to change it.
Here's what's working against me:
- I have a child and any smidge of free time that I have, I like to spend it with him.
- I grew up with the adage, "I don't mind cooking as long as you eat a lot." This manifests itself in my inability to leave food on my plate at home, restaurants, etc.
- Within the next year, we plan to try for baby #2. It's hard for me to imagine losing a bunch of weight only to get pregnant again.
- I have an all or nothing personality. Traditionally, I've either taken the extreme approach of counting each and every calorie I consume or just saying F*** it and eating everything my little heart desires.
Here's what's working for me:
- I started running in early October to train for a 5k. That race is this Sunday, which I'm excited about. Perhaps more importantly, I've come to enjoy running (never more than 30 minutes at a time) and have the gym membership, jogging stroller, running shoes, etc. that I need to stick with this.
- I have a little boy who is eating real, live people food. I've done some reading on how to instill healthy eating habits in him and how/what I eat will be one of the strongest predictors of how/what he eats. His health is a great motivation for me, more so than my own health.
- I'm still a breastfeeding mom, which should still be burning a decent amount of calories
Here's my plan:
- I will weigh myself every Monday on that damn scale at the gym, which of course will require going to the gym every Monday.
- I will not go crazy about this weight loss idea -- I've done that before and I was miserable. If anyone still reads this crazy, mixed-up, sporadically used blog of mine, please hold me to this pledge. Let me know if you see me cross the line from simply trying to live a cleaner, healthier life to trying to be skinny at all costs.
- I will try to blog daily (who am I kidding, this won't happen) to list three decisions I'm proud of and three that I wish I would have made differently.
Three Decisions Today that I'm Proud Of:
- I went to the gym and ran for 30 minutes.
- I was really, really hungry when I got home from work. Usually while I'm cooking dinner, I'll eat graham crackers or Goldfish to hold me over. Today, I peeled myself an orange and also nibbled on some baby carrots.
- I had a chicken caesar wrap at a work function. Toward the end of the wrap, there was no goodness left in the bottom, just plain tortilla. I stopped eating when it stopped tasting good.
Three Decisions I Regret:
- The work function I went to for lunch had dessert boxes with 2 cookies in them. I ate 1.5 of the cookies, which I'd actually be fine with, except most of the time I was thinking that they were clearly not homemade and didn't taste that good to me.
- I hate drinking water. I'm absolutely horrible at it and today was no exception. I think I maybe had a glass with lunch, but that was it.
- I had an early morning and ate a protein bar for breakfast. It was not enough to satisfy me so by about 9:30 am I was hungry again. I reached in my purse for an apple I had stashed away, but the apple had gone bad, so I threw it out. I had an orange in my purse too, but I was too lazy to peel it. I wish I would've.
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