Thursday, January 27, 2011

Thursday, January 27

The Good:

  • Had tea and water with my breakfast.
  • Restrained myself from eating the hot tamales on my boss's desk during our afternoon meeting.
  • Had a healthy lunch -- lean cuisine pizza.


  • When the afternoon rolled around and I was hungry (after all a lean cuisine pizza isn't filling), I grabbed an orange from my purse, but it wasn't good, so I had a bag of potato chips that I was storing in my drawer.  Yuck.  They didn't even taste that good.
  • I got my haircut at the end of the day.  Work had been stressful so when they offered me wine, I accepted.
  • After these two missteps, I let the rest of the day slide, indulging in a beer and appetizers at the neighborhood bar.

Lesson Learned: Just because you make one bad move doesn't mean you have to screw up the rest of the day.

Wednesday, January 26

The good:
  • Ran for 30 minutes before work.  I'm not into getting up early to work out, but James got me up around 6 wanting to nurse, so I just stayed up and went to the gym.
  • Had a work luncheon (are you seeing a theme here?) with tiramisu.  At first, I didn't get any, but everyone was raving about it, so I decided not to eat my polenta and try the tiramisu instead.  I relished every bit and it was delicious.
  • I get super hungry between 4 pm and dinner time.  I picked up a Reese's peanut butter cup off a co-worker's desk to satisfy my late afternoon slump.  In a move that was truly miraculous, I set it back down and didn't eat it!  

The bad:

  • Brett and I had a mini date night last night.  This pretty much just means that we open a bottle of wine, watch some TV together and then have sex.  We had champagne.  I know it's not good for me, but it's such a big part of our tradition together.
I'm learning that sweets are definitely my weak point.  Also, between 3 and 6 pm are the dangerous hours for me.  I thought ahead and brought an orange yesterday, but that didn't satisfy me.  I was craving sweets and salty carbs.  

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Tuesday, December 25

The Good:

  • Forced myself to drink 20 ounces of water and a mug of chamomile tea before I allowed myself to have my first soda.
  • At a work-related lunch, I snapped my chocolate chip cookie in half and only ate half!
  • I'm sitting on the couch with the Hubbs right now to watch the State of the Union address.  Usually, this would be the perfect time for a glass of wine, but instead I'm having a cafe au caramel decaf tea.


  • Had a site visit and the development director proudly presented me with homemade cookies.  I couldn't really say no or break them in half, so I ate one -- it was good!
  • Went back for seconds of hard shell, homemade, turkey tacos.  

Monday, January 24, 2011

Monday, January 24

I am less than two weeks away from turning 29.  I'm 5'4" and weigh 151 pounds, according to the scale on the second floor of my gym.  BMI: 25.9

I'm not happy with that and am determined to do something to change it.

Here's what's working against me:

  • I have a child and any smidge of free time that I have, I like to spend it with him.
  • I grew up with the adage, "I don't mind cooking as long as you eat a lot."  This manifests itself in my inability to leave food on my plate at home, restaurants, etc.
  • Within the next year, we plan to try for baby #2.  It's hard for me to imagine losing a bunch of weight only to get pregnant again.
  • I have an all or nothing personality. Traditionally, I've either taken the extreme approach of counting each and every calorie I consume or just saying F*** it and eating everything my little heart desires.

Here's what's working for me:

  • I started running in early October to train for a 5k.  That race is this Sunday, which I'm excited about.  Perhaps more importantly, I've come to enjoy running (never more than 30 minutes at a time) and have the gym membership, jogging stroller, running shoes, etc. that I need to stick with this.
  • I have a little boy who is eating real, live people food.  I've done some reading on how to instill healthy eating habits in him and how/what I eat will be one of the strongest predictors of how/what he eats.  His health is a great motivation for me, more so than my own health.
  • I'm still a breastfeeding mom, which should still be burning a decent amount of calories

Here's my plan:

  • I will weigh myself every Monday on that damn scale at the gym, which of course will require going to the gym every Monday.
  • I will not go crazy about this weight loss idea -- I've done that before and I was miserable.  If anyone still reads this crazy, mixed-up, sporadically used blog of mine, please hold me to this pledge.  Let me know if you see me cross the line from simply trying to live a cleaner, healthier life to trying to be skinny at all costs.
  • I will try to blog daily (who am I kidding, this won't happen) to list three decisions I'm proud of and three that I wish I would have made differently.
Three Decisions Today that I'm Proud Of:
  • I went to the gym and ran for 30 minutes.
  • I was really, really hungry when I got home from work. Usually while I'm cooking dinner, I'll eat graham crackers or Goldfish to hold me over.  Today, I peeled myself an orange and also nibbled on some baby carrots.
  • I had a chicken caesar wrap at a work function.  Toward the end of the wrap, there was no goodness left in the bottom, just plain tortilla.  I stopped eating when it stopped tasting good.

Three Decisions I Regret:
  • The work function I went to for lunch had dessert boxes with 2 cookies in them.  I ate 1.5 of the cookies, which I'd actually be fine with, except most of the time I was thinking that they were clearly not homemade and didn't taste that good to me.
  • I hate drinking water.  I'm absolutely horrible at it and today was no exception.  I think I maybe had a glass with lunch, but that was it.
  • I had an early morning and ate a protein bar for breakfast.  It was not enough to satisfy me so by about 9:30 am I was hungry again.  I reached in my purse for an apple I had stashed away, but the apple had gone bad, so I threw it out.  I had an orange in my purse too, but I was too lazy to peel it.  I wish I would've.